Vulgar | Reverie

He had forgotten to watch himself.

By week two, he had a roster. 4B was Denise. She fake-laughed on the phone with her mother, then spent hours searching “how to know if you’re depressed” on a glowing laptop. 2A was the retired cop who drank gin from a coffee mug and talked to his dead wife’s urn. 1C was the newlywed who only stopped screaming at his wife when he started crying, and only stopped crying when he started screaming again. vulgar reverie

One night, Denise in 4B did something different. After her usual post-cry face wash, she turned off the light. But instead of disappearing into the dark, she walked to her window and pressed her palm flat against the glass. She stared directly at Marco’s telescope—not as if she had seen him, but as if she had always known he was there. He had forgotten to watch himself

The vulgar reverie had begun.

That was the worst part of the vulgar reverie. She fake-laughed on the phone with her mother,

That’s when he saw her: the woman in 4B, eating cold lo mein from a carton while crying in the dark. She wasn’t beautiful. She was real—nose running, chin glistening, chewing with her mouth open because no one was there to care. Marco felt something he hadn’t felt in years: a dirty, electric recognition .

She smiled. Not a sad smile. Not a fake one.